there is a certain rhythm to being a student and i was really used to all those confines and deadlines. i like structure so im probably going to have to build my own routines in. i try to do these things, but without immediate repercussions they fall through. i've been lazy on the job search and about going to the gym and mailing out cards, making phone calls, keeping up with people. i start to do everything and never finish. yesterday the weather kept me in and i was blah all day. i hope 24 is much less blah than 23 was. i actually have a birthday this year.